Beyond Room 119

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After a long hiatus, I’m back! I just looked back and saw that my last post was in February, which seems like eons away. The reason for my absence is easy to explain: I was not happy last year. And because I don’t see the point in whining about my problems in a public forum, I stopped writing. And then, I decided to take action.

There are many problems in our world today. It doesn’t take someone with a Ph.D to tell you that. One of them, albeit not one of the more discussed ones, is our culture’s lack of meaningful action. Yes, we do things all the time – running errands, meeting with friends, going to work – but so often, we do things so we don’t have to think. To insulate us from reflection. To stop us from realizing that something in our lives is eating away at our core. Socrates once told his followers, “Beware the barrenness of a busy life,” and this is a warning that we in the twenty-first century must heed. We are busy, but we so often do things that don’t matter. Things that upset us. And when we are unhappy, we fail to take action. “That’s the way life is sometimes,” we reason. “Life isn’t perfect.”

I’m not going to sit here and tell you that’s wrong. Life is far from perfect. And sometimes, we get dealt a really bad hand and we have to play it out the best we can, settling for a Jack high, instead of a royal flush. But this type of thinking takes the responsibility away from the individual, which is the one of the greatest injustices our culture can do. “You don’t need to worry your little brain about thinking,” we are told, through the messages of television and advertising. But then we are left in a quagmire. We don’t act because we think, we are programmed to believe, that we are stuck and helpless.

Well, during the Martin Luther King, Jr. holiday in January, I realized just how unhappy I was. And more importantly, I decided not to let that paralyze me or stop me from living my life. I made the decision to leave my job. But rent, bills, and car payments don’t pay themselves, and I had to find another job first. To make a very long (and at times seemingly endless) journey short, after four months of searching, seventeen job applications, and many prayers, I received an email: We want you to come in for an interview. This was the only interview I got, and I had more than a few things to say to the Big Dude about this. God, I just accepted that you don’t want me to leave my current job, and you throw this my way NOW? Work with me here, dude.

They had received 78 applications and chose six candidates to interview. They told me this right off the bat. In my head, I was thinking, “Why me?” 78 applicants, six interviewed, one chosen. A few breathless weeks later, I learned that I was the one they chose. The wild card, they had called me in my interview. Well, the wild card was always my favorite card in Uno, and now I knew why. You never know what to expect, and sometimes the result is beyond anything you could have ever imagined.

So I left my job and started this one. I’ll have lots to say about it, but I’ll save that for future posts. The big thing is, I took action. I was unhappy, unfulfilled, not full of joy, and I was not going to accept that. We as humans are not meant to settle. We are meant to make manifest the light within us and as we do so, we become as stained glass windows, adding to the beauty of the world around us. Why be content with dust and grime when you can have a rainbow?

Now, go out there and create your rainbow.